affected totally.

pains.

i feel painful inside, do i always have to go through something to understand a fact? i dont want to see the worst to come in between us, im really trying to sustain this r/s. but sigh… i dont understand what i want. do i really have to see him everyday?sometimes i ask myself.

okay, enough said. maybe i need to learn to be more busy sometimes to keep my mind off somethings.